The week that was
I began the week watching The Simpson’s Movie, which was pretty brilliant. An eighty-minute laugh riot was the right mood to begin and yeah, I suppose that’s what it did. I thought that I would review the movie, but laziness, my favourite enemy had other ideas and decided to let me sleep for the rest of the week.
So, I went back to work on Monday thinking life would be better but unfortunately for me, it was the same fucking routine, which by now began to piss me off. I had met a couple of friends that day during the lunch break and was very quiet. I remember them asking me what was wrong and I replied, “I’m just thinking a lot.” I assure you, thinking is usually bad, but this time around, it was trying to pinpoint my frustrations.
I had a friend’s birthday to go for that evening. He’s probably my oldest friend; we’ve known each other since we were six and we were catching up on some old times. He then raised the issue of me working in Delhi and suddenly something inside me snapped – it finally was that. Ha!
As stupid as it sounds, I was never able to become angry about my stint at Delhi. I’ve told a few people about it and those who read this post know who you are. Well, I suppose the feeling of disappointment and bewilderment of that experience finally, after a year and a half had finally turned into anger. And what made me sick was that I reacted so late and have treated the people that I love like crap. I’ve snapped, said rude stuff and generally been mean. I know that you guys – you know who you are too – have gotten hurt and all that I can say to you is that I’m really sorry for what I did. You guys don’t deserve that at all.
So, now that I’ve pinpointed the reason, I feel the need to channel it into something positive and I’ve gone back to being my crazy self.
I also discovered the wonders of human behaviour this week. One week, a guy says something and the very next week, he contradicts himself. You can’t help, but be amused with this behaviour. You first question your sanity with regard to whether you heard him right and then when you know that you heard right, you know that you’re okay. Ha! You meet all sorts to see the world survive.
Oh yeah, one of my friends asked me whether I hated a particular individual for the way he treats me. I said, “Dude, hating someone means giving them that value in your life. I’m indifferent to his existence.” And that’s what I’d tell anyone with a feeling of ill or hate towards anyone. If people treat you like shit, don’t take it. The people I know, love and respect are like that and I know for sure that they’ll give it back. There will be anger and dislike for a while, but that ideally should be replaced by indifference. Who the fuck are they in terms of adding value to your life? Whether it’s your teacher, boss, someone you once considered a friend anyone; even if a parent has treated you like how Vernon and Petunia treated Harry, indifference is the best solution. That gets them riled up even more and I can say this with whatever little experience I have. I won’t deny that I hated people earlier, but today, they’re not even a part of my thought process, which is how I’d like it to be.
As for my friends – whether you’re the online ones or the guys I meet everyday – I love you all. I learn from you guys everyday and in my book, you’re all rockstars.
I’m looking forward to this week. Anniversary issues begin which means I’m going to live in office for many more hours and at the same time, study for my exams which will be on October 1 and 20.
Until next week, this is me saying, taa!
